We have been back in Niger for over a month now!
The time flies and it’s hard to believe how
much we’ve been up to in less than 5 weeks.
That’s the thing that always gets me in blogging about my life in
Niger.
Life here is absolutely packed
with all kinds of things that happen to us or that might be interesting to
write about, so...
Which story to tell?
Which picture of all 2,000 that I took this
month should I share?
If I let too much
time go by, I start to get overwhelmed and give up writing all together.
BUT, hope springs eternal, right?! With the beginning of a new term in Niger
comes the hope that, once again, I could write and keep up better with what’s
happening. It’s like a New Year’s resolution. January 1st starts with
fresh hope budding in the soul that this
year, one could and WILL, “be faithful in ALL things, (for me) be an awesome wife, a
loving mother who never speaks harshly to her precious little flock, a woman who
keeps the house in ship-shape tidiness, a perfect missionary (whatever THAT is
– hellllo-o?!), start that new exercise plan to really get in shape, read the
Bible faithfully each and every day (maybe even all the way through it twice
this year, even though I only made it to the Psalms last year)…” The list goes on when looking at a New Year’s
(or a New Term’s) list of resolutions.
Isn’t it funny how we do that? Or
maybe it’s just me! Always looking for a
fresh start to get the chance to do things perfectly THIS time!
Oh, PERFECTION. Definition: “the condition, state, or quality
of being free or as free as possible from all flaws or defects.”
(dictionary.com)
Hmmm… That’s not what
God’s looking for, is it? He’s already
told us in Romans 3:10, “There is none righteous, no, not one.” He’s not looking
for us to attain perfection. He already
knows that we don’t have it within ourselves to complete any resolution list we
make for ourselves.
Stirring from within me, I hear a still-small voice saying,
“His mercies are new every morning.” I think
God knew we would never do anything perfectly on this earth. Thus, He made sure we knew that He creates
EACH DAY NEW with a fresh start – new
mercies for the new day. We don’t
have to restart at the beginning of a New Year (or a new term in Niger) to get
it right. Each day, as we go to Him to
seek fresh mercy and grace for that day, He gives us grace to do what He’s
called us to do that day. It’s not about
being perfect. It’s about daily seeking
Him, knowing Him, and having Him lead us.
It’s about relationship.
This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the LORD'S
mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are
new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The LORD is my portion, saith my
soul; therefore will I hope in him. The LORD is good unto them that wait for
him, to the soul that seeketh him. It is good that a man should both hope and
quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD. (Lam 3:21-26)
Just now, as I was sitting and pondering on what I demand of
myself versus what He asks of me, I became aware of the children’s music
playing in our living room. The old
song, “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these
things shall be added unto you. Amen. Amen.” was playing. (from Matt 6:33)
Jesus also said in this same passage as He talked about how
much God cares for us and wants to provide for us, “do not worry about
tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day
is its own trouble.” (Matt 6:34) God
knows each day has its struggles! He
also gave us the key to facing them. “Trust
Me. Know Me. Seek Me.
Don’t worry about those other things.
I’ll take care of them. I’ll take
care of you.”
So what does this have to do with blogging? Or being a missionary in Niger? Or being a mom, or a wife, or a friend? It means instead of striving to do anything
in this life with perfection, which is my natural tendency, I want to go to God
first, to seek love and purpose from Him, to take some time to read His word,
sing a song to Him, and soak in knowing He loves me and can order the steps of
my day. Once I’ve given my day to Him,
everything seems to fall into place. I
have grace to love my children and joy in loving my husband. I have energy to do what I need to do in the
house, and patience to homeschool my kids.
These are all fruits of the Spirit!
Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness,
and self-control. Wow – those are all of
the things I want to be! All the things
I tend to strive for in my own strength.
And yet, these are the things He freely gives when He pours out His Holy
Spirit in our lives.
Jesus said, "If you then, being evil, know how to give good
gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give
the Holy Spirit (and His fruit!) to
those who ask Him!” (Luke 11:13)
He’s waiting for us to ask.
He loves to give “The Helper” to those who are seeking help. (John 14
& 15) I don’t know about you, but I
need HELP to run this race well.
My New-Term’s Resolution is to throw out my resolution list
and look to God for strength, grace, joy, and direction on a day-to-day
basis. To run the race He’s set before
me, looking to Him, my Helper (Mai-Taimako
in Hausa), to pour out His love into my heart.
As I think about that, I feel a weight lift off me. I can do that. I can look to Him. I can go to Him. One day at a time. His grace is sufficient for me, and His
strength is made perfect in weakness.
As I was finishing the last sentence of this blog entry, my 2 year-old
stuck a pencil eraser up her nose. I’m
off to put this lesson into practice. His
mercies are new every morning!